Long Time -- boring update

Hi Everyone,

So it has been a long time since I have posted and a few things have happened. I have been interviewing therapists. I think I found someone that I can connect with...just have to check her out a few more times, but she felt good about seeing me. She knows a lot about my diagnoses (plural, of course). I've only been to her once, but she did offer me some good advice.

I went out on a date Saturday night. It was okay. I'm not used to someone treating me so special, so it was a little overwhelming and I'm not sure I'm really ready to be on the dating scene. At the prodding of a couple of friends, I joined a local dating website and ended up meeting T in person at a public place. Once we talked for awhile, we decided to go out and went to a movie and dinner. It was nice. He showed up with flowers, which J never did for me. He held my hand during the movie, but he asked first which I thought was really sweet. I kissed him on the cheek goodnight and we hugged and he left. The bad part is that I still live in J's house. It's not mine anymore, remember? I signed the quit claim during the divorce...I'm sure I just butchered the spelling of that, but I think that's what it's called. T is 4 years older than me as opposed to J being 2 years younger. It's different. He was married, but his wife died of cancer at 28. :( She was beautiful.

Anyway, I liked the guy enough, but I just don't feel like I want more than friendship. The idea of having to emotionally commit to someone is overwhelming to me right now. And I need to move out...I'm hoping to at the first of March.

Emotionally I am stable. I have had my bad days, but I am going to a support group on Monday nights and I'm hoping it turns out to really help me in the long run. I guess I'll go back to my divorce support group on Thursday...haven't decided for sure and I need to email the therapist to get the exact dates it meets.

School is dreadful. I am in Nutrition and in Biopsychology. I don't think they could have paired me up with two classes that I hate anymore than these two, lol. Really!! I turned in all of my assignments late last week and didn't even get my participation in with one class. It was too much for my mind to write about neurons and synpases. That shit is hard.

Then I had to do a 12-slide powerpoint on carbohydrates. OMG!!! There is only so much to say about simple and complex sugars and for someone with an eating disorder history? Holy Shit! I think I did 8 and I turned it in late, so at least I'll get something for effort, right?

So that's my life at the moment. I still haven't found a job even though I have applied pretty much everywhere that interests me. I'm thinking about going to church.... I dunno. What do you think?

I would love opinions on me dating. Too soon? Bad for me? Good for me?

My ears are open.

Oh...and guess what exmother-in-law pulled? She emailed her sister (who is a close friend of mine but they don't speak) to tell her that if she ever talks to me again that she is dead to her. LOL M told her that she guesses she won't ever speak to her again. Is it wrong that it felt good to me for someone to actually take my side? M has put up with a lot from evil ex-MIL. I don't think it was a huge loss for her.